in a daze
i've been working in a daze the whole week, had to be told off by b to take a freaking break at least every other 2 hours or so...okokok...geezuss...
so i was just trying to rush through everything before my supposed mini-break in a few days... bleurgghh... my mini-break is not by choice anyhow, it's chinese new year, the time of the year to gather with your super huge extended families from both sides of your parents... not fun, a break nontheless, but not fun
maybe some of you fella singaporean chinese would feel this way??? at least most of my friends do :p
especially when you are at the ripe-old-age of 26... not a millionaire... unmarried... with no private property to your name... you'd still be that wacky little girl who hasn't grown up yet and still daydreaming away idealistically, without a "proper" job...
hellooooo old fardy-dards, it's 2006. what constitutes a proper job. being cooped up in office for 10 hours a day??? getting a payslip from some person higher up??? getting lots of cpf contribution??? talking serious matters with a f***ed up stern look, using proper business terminology??? counting cold hard cash every end of the day??? ppuuleasee....
i love laughing while working, i love being stupid while working, i love acting silly and doing strange things while working, i love talking to myself while working. doesn't mean i'm stupid, strange or dumb, playing a fool, and not doing things the right way.... it just means you don't get it. duh. i do invoices and accounts and the shiat myself. i don't count petty cash, and i am not obliged to show you nor tell you my self-employed salary either. hell, you don't even understand what i'm doing in the first place.
prim and proper, prim and proper, i quit my job and refuse to work for others because i refuse to be prim and proper. i don't take instructions well, and i don't like to follow rules. i like to make my own rules. so there.
in singapore, anything that's unconventional or cannot be fully labelled or categorised is not a proper job. things are looking just slightly better now, but by just that tiny speck... what an educated and civilised nation :p
well, at least i'm going my b and both my parents to the fabulous chingay parade.. hurrah for that!! we haven't gone out as a whole family for quite some time.. and also hoping to make it for a short beach holiday with b... very mild hope... but hoping...
new sewer's verdict - she's okay, i guess i could use her help with some simpler bag designs, i think some of my shapes were a tad difficult for her to follow symmetrically. i hope to be able to sew very minimal bags in a couple of months, and let hired sewers do most of them, since they are by machines. and i can fully concentrate on all the handcrafted stuff, like my brooches and plush, which are all done only by me... cos i've no template for those, i cut them out free handed, and i like to do it in this not-very-productive-primitive way... muahahhaha... :p
so i was just trying to rush through everything before my supposed mini-break in a few days... bleurgghh... my mini-break is not by choice anyhow, it's chinese new year, the time of the year to gather with your super huge extended families from both sides of your parents... not fun, a break nontheless, but not fun
maybe some of you fella singaporean chinese would feel this way??? at least most of my friends do :p
especially when you are at the ripe-old-age of 26... not a millionaire... unmarried... with no private property to your name... you'd still be that wacky little girl who hasn't grown up yet and still daydreaming away idealistically, without a "proper" job...
hellooooo old fardy-dards, it's 2006. what constitutes a proper job. being cooped up in office for 10 hours a day??? getting a payslip from some person higher up??? getting lots of cpf contribution??? talking serious matters with a f***ed up stern look, using proper business terminology??? counting cold hard cash every end of the day??? ppuuleasee....
i love laughing while working, i love being stupid while working, i love acting silly and doing strange things while working, i love talking to myself while working. doesn't mean i'm stupid, strange or dumb, playing a fool, and not doing things the right way.... it just means you don't get it. duh. i do invoices and accounts and the shiat myself. i don't count petty cash, and i am not obliged to show you nor tell you my self-employed salary either. hell, you don't even understand what i'm doing in the first place.
prim and proper, prim and proper, i quit my job and refuse to work for others because i refuse to be prim and proper. i don't take instructions well, and i don't like to follow rules. i like to make my own rules. so there.
in singapore, anything that's unconventional or cannot be fully labelled or categorised is not a proper job. things are looking just slightly better now, but by just that tiny speck... what an educated and civilised nation :p
well, at least i'm going my b and both my parents to the fabulous chingay parade.. hurrah for that!! we haven't gone out as a whole family for quite some time.. and also hoping to make it for a short beach holiday with b... very mild hope... but hoping...
new sewer's verdict - she's okay, i guess i could use her help with some simpler bag designs, i think some of my shapes were a tad difficult for her to follow symmetrically. i hope to be able to sew very minimal bags in a couple of months, and let hired sewers do most of them, since they are by machines. and i can fully concentrate on all the handcrafted stuff, like my brooches and plush, which are all done only by me... cos i've no template for those, i cut them out free handed, and i like to do it in this not-very-productive-primitive way... muahahhaha... :p
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i am so proud of you for doing your own thing. i am similar in not being able to be serious all the time... or any of the time... i think people probably find me immature, but i like having fun and being silly!
you do fabulous work! you will surely be famous and rich one day and then everyone will relaize what a good job decision you made.
Hey, I love you! :D
I FEEL ya babe! I feel ya! We'll see what sort of mischief we can come up with at your home's buffet dinner!! LOL
Don't you just LOVE annoying, Annoying Adults? Ooh yeah
hey rachel! ~
hooray for silliness!! ^o^
i guess that's how peeps like us handle serious work, in a not so serious way! so that we can get things done fast, in a positive way, yah?
i'm not sure about being famous and rich though, living a happy life and being able to provide for myself and my family fully and satisfactorily would be great! ^o^ i'd like to see your stuff grow when you're done with school!
szili! ~ you and your fiancee are such sweet people!!
shan! ~ we'll come up with something, as always.. muahaha! this morning on my way to the post office, i saw a young child pointing out a super obvious common sense mistake to her dad (who doesn't seem to have much common sense). i got such a kick out of it. i'm sick like that :p
i love ur this post! same i feel the same! i hate being restricted,constrained n with elder folks tryin 2 get into my way. i noe they meant it gd but somehow tis is my life! i can go broke or what, bt all i wan is something $$ cant buy..happiness!! glad u pointed out n made my day! at least nw i noe i m not alone,havin such a thinking wich other superficial pple regard my theory as childish n immature!So be it! jiayou!
Good for you, Lynda! Just keep on doing your own thing. People just don't seem to realise that you can grow up without losing the fun factor in life. It seems that after a certain age, all depending on in which country you live, you need to become serious and do certain things that are expected of you like get married, get kids, buy a house and have a steady job. Rubbish! Luckily there are people around in their thirty- and even forty somethings who are still doing their own thing and have fun doing it, no matter how it may look to the outside world. I am glad to say that I am one of those people :-) I guess it's easier here in The Netherlands. No strong family ties and the families are a lot smaller, but I meet people who think my business is just a hobby and not a real job. They are the people who just don't get it and I feel sad for them... because they don't know how to enjoy life and enjoy freedom! We can so .... go have and fun at this weekend break no matter what!
i feel you. except that im still working towards that and you're already there! i'm kinda stuck though. but i know i have to start somewhere, just like you did! :) hopefully i turn out as good as you! ;)
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